Obviously been a very very long time since I’ve posted anything. I would like to change that and hopefully I will stay on track and start posting again every week. Life in general has changed a lot. My focus for the blog now is going to be more related to the projects I’m working on. I ‘m going to probably dial back on anything related to programming. Though I still do it, only for myself. At the moment I no longer work for or contracted as a programmer. This is something I chose because I believe programming is not how I want to earn a living. This has been an on going thing for a couple years. My focus for work is farming, it is my passion, it always has been. I think as time progresses I will post more farm related stuff than anything. Maybe as things progress, I will detail my failures and successes.
As I said, life has changed a lot. Been all over the country and done different jobs. I’ve had major set backs and major successes. But the one part of my life that truly changed my life was finding the girl of my dreams. I’ve been seeing her now for two years. She is the best part of my life, she makes my day, I really couldn’t live without her, and I hope someday I marry that girl. I love that girl!
It’s crazy how much life changes only over a matter of two years. I think back to the last decade and can’t believe all the good and bad that has happened. Life is an interesting funny thing. So many sayings are true. I wish I could fix things that are out of my control. I’m glad for the hard times, I learned so much and I’ve become a better person for it all. Life really does seem to test you at times.
I decided to rethink life recently. You know, I took jobs or contract work as a means to the end, as anyone really would. Don’t we all take jobs to go after our passion? I’m sure many find jobs that are in line with their passions. I just never really did. I always took the first opportunity that paid what I wanted, which again I think many people would agree that is the right thing to do. Or what they are suppose to do. What I found time and time again, was I was unhappy. Doing something I never wanted to do. Dealing with unreal expectations and feeling stuck in life. There have been times, I attempted to change it all but I came up short. The drive was lost, maybe just too burned from the past, or too stuck in my own head. The draw back to going through a lot, is somethings it takes a lot to find your way back out of it. I think of it like walking in the woods, you run into really thick bush (the bad), takes a while to get through it, but in the end you end up in the wide open woods at some point. It’s time to purse my passion. Do what I need and want. No matter how hard. No matter how much bush I have to walk through, I’ll be happy in the end. It’s all about putting it all on the line and fighting for what you want.
I made a big change in the last week, I quit my job. A job that was fun at times, hard but interesting. It gave me a chance to go places I probably never would otherwise. But I felt I had to be there and didn’t want to be there. It wasn’t what I wanted. I wasn’t happy. I knew I was spending more and more time working for someone else and not really doing anything to get closer to my passion. The things that make me happy. I mean I read books, went to farms, talked to other farmers, did interviews with them, but I wasn’t hitting my own mark. So, like I said, put it all on the line and fight for what I want. I’ll be farming soon. I most of it figured out and what I’ll be able to sell in the market I’m looking at. Should make for some interesting blog posts.
I’ll likely take all the old posts about programming and move them into a dedicated category. I may revive SimplyCaptcha. It worked really well in the past and never had an issue with it really. I think it needs updating and if I do update it, I will update it for everyone. I may open it up completely free to the world as an API. I may also charge a $1 a month for it. Not really sure what I’ll do with it just yet.
I’ll leave you all with this, as cliche as it is, go after your dreams. Go after what you want. Don’t give up. Don’t back down. Take a little bit of time,everyday to get closer to it. Take chances, you may get hurt, but you probably won’t regret when your older. I heard the saying that says, “Before you do something, think about yourself at 80. Would your 80 year old self regret not doing the thing you want to do? Would your 80 year old self be upset or happy?” Live by that.